Life After Emilee Logo | Neal Klein honoring his wife after losing her to pancreatic cancer
Life After Emilee Logo | Neal Klein honoring his wife after losing her to pancreatic cancer
Life After Emilee Logo | Neal Klein honoring his wife after losing her to pancreatic cancer

The Grieving Process

After IT – The Sound of Dirt

Two days later, the day of the funeral is mild and sunny.   The hole in the ground is much smaller than he was tall. Or so it seems when vertical is converted to horizontal. But it does seem deep. The casket is lowered in and there is at least four feet between the top…

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“IT” Changed My World

I can’t understand why she keeps repeating his name. “Harvey. HARvey. HARVEY.” Louder and louder, after his black and gold wind-up Benrus alarm clock ran down, its bell sounds making a decrescendo from shrill to soft to silent. My mom’s voice swells from normal to loud to shriek.   As she keeps saying his name…

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Dear Dad – Happy Birthday

My dad would have been 95 tomorrow. If only he had lived to tell me, to answer my questions, especially, what is life all about? “Dad, you never answered me when I asked about life, when I was 7. Thankfully, I am finding out to some extent now. Better late than never. Maybe you didn’t…

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Song – Anniversary Without performed

First time posting one of my songs on this website, I think, but don’t hold me to that. I have about twenty that I have written and about another twenty covers that I have recorded on my channel.  This is a song I just posted to my youtube channel. It is about dealing with anniversaries…

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About the Tree

About the Tree… One of the things we have talked about in my meditation class is impermanence, how things change constantly. And attachment. How getting attached is human. The two seem to go hand-in-hand. As long as I learn to accept impermanence, and learn to accept getting unattached, I won’t be an anxious wreck all the…

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Song – Anniversary Without – Lyrics

  What do you want someone to say to you, what do I want someone to say to me, what do I say to someone, who spouse has died, and their anniversary date arrives? Do I say something to them, or do I ignore it like the pink elephant in the room? Lots of times…

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Shovel Full of Dirt

When he was gone I realized I lost my favorite parent. The one I preferred to wipe my ass when I needed it wiped. The one who protected me when I thought someone was going to beat me up on the last day of elementary school. He had been born in Brooklyn. As an adult…

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Manhattan Then And Now

July 2017   The day I went into the city I switched from backpack to Em’s crescent bag. It was one of the things Emilee had left behind when she died. One of the things that I chose to keep and not give away. I thought I might use it, and I liked having things…

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The First Time My World Changed

The Day My World Changed   I was twelve. It was May 12, 1966, a Thursday. We had moved into this house eight months ago on my twelfth birthday.   I walked the three quarters of a mile to the railroad station to meet my dad at around 6 p.m. so I could have some…

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Morning Musings 2

A few things about this morning. Some Realizations first. I am overly sentimental by most standards, but it feels just right to me. Tears are soooo much easier than they used to be, and no shame. I am proud that as a male I can cry when moved to. Emilee did that for me. Among…

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